There's a solitaire game on my computer. The name of the game is Josephine. It's winnable 25% of the time, which means that 75% of the time I end up losing. But I play it again and again and again, sometimes for hours. I play it even when I know I'm not enjoying it: just one more, and one more, and one more, and maybe I'll win. I play it even when I feel naseous about the fact that I'm playing it.
Delaying tactic.
About Me
- Carolyn Hill
- When I first started on Blogger, my handle was "Ratty", maintaining anonymity so that in my "Rat in the Walls" blog I could write about my brother's fatal illness without giving away his identity. Under that pseudonym, I could voice things I couldn't elsewhere. Rats thrive in the dark. ::: Now, five years after his death in 2008, I'm coming out of the walls and reclaiming my humanity.
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